Trapped

I'm feeling trapped again. Trapped to the point that I would have to disguise the words of this post. My words on a daily basis. My actions. So am I really trapped or operating within the confines of someone else's reality. We all have to make choices and no once do as they please all the time. Right? Is that what I need to tell myself? Is that what you tell yourself? Would you trade money for more choice? Would you give up choice for more money? Would you take your winnings in a lump sum or in payments? You could settle now, but never complain again. Does this just buy my the right to complain. The right to fight? The right to build? Will I regret my choices in the future? What have I given up?

"I wanted a mission and for my sins they gave me one."
-Captain Benjamin Willard